God as constant companion

 After meeting God a few times I now have him as a constant companion. Not as a separate being but a constant feeling of soul. A constant undercurrent in all that is out in nature, the modern world and everything that is. In myself and in every human and all beings of all planes of existence. 

Meeting Jesus

 The first time was about 25 years ago. I was reading lots of spiritual text but could not find any esoteric teachings of Christ. I was calling out to him with all my heart and all my soul. Then he appeared in the eye of my soul and said to me "Just relax and take it easy" and all my emotions and worries was gone. Christ is part of the earth and you can meet him on the etheric plane. 

  The Second time

On 21 June 2023 I dreamt that I was Jesus. I was walking down the road/village
singing an old folk song of kindness. I would kneel by the poor/hopeless
people next to the road while singing. They would slowly get confidence,
look up, then take my hand and finally stand. No words just singing and eye
contact.

But the special part is that I could feel the power of love radiating from
me. Not just a feeling but a Power! I could ‘see’ this power flowing into
people and give them confidence.

 

Though the dream where I was Jesus was short it has been very impactful. I
just realized it was on the solstice. Also the people that Jesus(I) was
blessing was me, He lifted me up also.


The most important thing is now I know how it feels to be Jesus. What he did
for people and what power he carried within him. How that power of Love
feels, ‘looks’ like and effects people. Now I can do the same, impersonate
him. 

Meeting God Again

  

At that time which I guess is around 2005 I was dating a girl called Monica
from Portugal. We where having a ruff patch and I thought at that time it
was not going to work out. I was living in Amsterdam and I prepared the room and did about an hour musical meditation. I started feeling intense and extreme emotional pain because of the relationship. It was getting to such a high intense moment that it almost became unbearable and then next moment the physical world was gone. In about 5 second I blasted out of the known universe of Love and Light. Now this is significant
because I thought all that exists and God basically everything is in the
“all” of Love and Light. So, I was very surprised that the universe of Love
and Light is just but a spec of all that exists.



I continue to travel at light speed through the empty dark void. Then I
encountered many demons and devils, and they offered me many riches and
powers. I would merge and become one with a devil. I would know all its
thoughts/feelings/desires and I guess it would ‘know/feel’ the same about
me. Even my spiritual form would become that of the devil I have joined
with. I clearly remember growing long teeth like them. Each time I would
merge with a devil they would make me an offer which I rejected by saying I
choose Love and Light. The last 3 devils were extremely powerful and offered
me vast riches and powers but I kept on with my mantra that I choose Love
and Light. Then I continue to travel through the dark void.



I then became aware of a guiding helper above behind my right shoulder. I
never looked back to see this being but from then on I always felt his
presence and guidance. I then had the opportunity to ask questions and my
most burning question at that time is who/what is God?

I then saw God as face traveling through space and time. Universes would
form(be born) on the front of his face and flow towards the back of his head
as they mature and end their life cycle in his flowing hair. Now I have to
mention that as the face was traveling forward (my right to left) it looked
like there was a strong wind blowing on his face. The head was made out of
universes being born on the front as small specs, growing lager as they move
backwards. Looking like spiral galaxies and finally disappearing in the
flowing hair.

Together with the view I just described there is also the understanding of
what God is feeling/thinking and experiencing. The vastness and depth were
incredible to bear and realize. The understanding of who/what God is was
given to me by experiencing God. Infinity, Space, Time, Divine Love is but
all minute little specs of knowledge/experience in comparison to the all
that is God. My question evolved into asking what is your inner essence God? 

This answer came as an unbearable weight of knowing all and the unknowing. 
The best words I came up with other the years is that God is in the 
continual process of self-discovery.  The unbearable weight of unknowing, is 
that great vastness of the part of God that he still needs to discover about 
himself. Not knowing if there is ever an end. We are all part of then 
continual process of discovering the essence of God. We are all God 
discovering herself through our actions, experiences and questions we ask.

I asked God what is outside of you? There is no outside as space and time is
only concepts of our little universe. Then I share with God the unbearable
experience of no time/space and even infinity is just another
concept/experience of the many.

Looking at the face of God, with the wind blowing in his face and multiple
universes being born and coming to an end. I asked if there is no space and
time how come your face is traveling and universes are being born ?

With this question the face transformed into a perfect round sphere. With
the encouragement of my guide behind me I travel closer the sphere which is
God. The sphere looked like a silver ball, and I flew closer to
understand/experience more of who/what God is. Then as I came close enough
to the silver ball (God) I saw the reflection of myself on its surface and
realized that I am God. This was to much for me to bear and I ‘fell down’
from where I was. It is easy to say or understand that ‘we are God’ or ‘we
are one with God”, but there is an unbearable ‘weight/knowing’ of the
experience of being God.



The next thing I remember is trying to find the universe or plane of
existence to which I belong. I was in a lift going down and on each ‘floor’
the doors would open, I looked out and say ‘no this is not where I belong’.
I had visited about 10 ‘planes of existence’ and was starting to get worries
that I would never find my place again. More worried than I was with the
merging with devils. But eventually I found our universe with earth again.



Back in my room I could physically hear the electricity flow in the cables
in the wall. I understood the meaning of live and it is so simplistic that
it made me laugh for a very long time, during with a spiritual
golden/electrical ball formed in my mouth. (and electricity in my
fingertips) The meaning of live which I don’t recalled the next day. The
room was also full of light, I thought the sun was rising, but then realized
that it was me shining the light. I had no shadow.



I am writing this experience on 1 September 2022 which is 17 years after the
meeting with God. It is the epic peak experience for me so far in this
lifetime and a turning point. It changed me from I have faith, to I know. I
have had more spiritual experiences before and after this one, and I never
wrote them down or tell anybody because my spiritual linage advice against
making these things public. But there is nothing more in life that motivate
me so much as to hear the spiritual experiences of others. As I will become
50 in a few months I have to leave these spiritual treasures for others to
learn and grow from. (Now I am crying and can’t write anymore) !!


Today is 16 April 2026,

I have been thinking about this experience the past few days and want to add the following understanding:

When I became one with God and felt how it felt to be God I can define it as:

 

The infinitely heavy burden of isolation vs the infinite strength of continual self discovery.

It is like the expression, ‘An unstoppable force meets an unmovable rock”

Isolation might be interpreted by some as loneliness. And by using this word I know we had the same experience, but the word loneliness means something different to me than what I have experienced. Loneliness is a sad withdrawal into oneself, while there is a whole world outside. But in God case there is no outside or any other being to ‘talk’ to. It is pure isolation, which lead to the creation of other consciousnesses with inside God. (ie Angels, humans and others).

 

Like God is carrying infinite heavy rock climbing an infinite high mountain. 

 

Now imagine the maturity and the inner strength of soul to do this. Additionally to be consciously aware of all that is, the 'infinite' is just a spec in this experience.   

 

 

 

My first meeting with God

  

I must have been 9 years old and went to a weekend church camp. It is a
long weekend camping with a big group of children and teachers giving
Protestant bible school teachings to us. For us kids it was mostly about
playing and having fun.

 

On the last day, the last meeting with our smaller group of about 7-9
kids, the teacher gave us each a piece of paper. She asked if we have
given our hearts to Jesus and only need to write the answer on the paper
privately. The papers then got passed down the circle clockwise and since
I was on the teacher right side, I collected all the answers and gave them
to her. I wrote No on my paper and saw all the other kids wrote Yes. I saw
the teacher looking at the answers till she saw my 'no' paper and looked up
worried at all the children. I kept a straight face and I saw that the
teacher had no idea who wrote no. By that time the time was finished, and
we all rushed to go play and go home in a few hours.

 

That night at home, or maybe the following night, I thought about my
answer and relation to God. I was in bed and ready to sleep but I prayed
to God, saying I accept/believe that he exists. With that a tunnel of
light opened above my bed. The tunnel was made out of angels shining light
and singing. At the end of the tunnel was a brighter light that was God.
Then God said: "This is my Son, whom I love; with Him I am well pleased."
. I was feeling overwhelmed with love and gratitude and fell asleep.

 

The line that God said was from Matthew 3:17, which is the same words God
spoke when Jesus got baptized by John the Baptist. When the Holy Spirit in
the form of a Dove descended on Jesus.

 

This was my first spiritual experience that I can remember.

A Call to all the Witnesses of God

This is a call to all the witnesses of God to step forth and let your truth be know, let your light shine forth.

 

The divine spark have been sleeping in your heart and it is  time for the sleeper to awaken.

 

A witness of the Divine is anyone that experienced the Light of God. Or any experience that moved you from faith in God to knowing beyond the shadow of a doubt that God is real. God is in all of us and in all things, all existence is God.

The time has come to share and bear witness of your experience, in order to let the Divine light shine on all of humanity.

 

Witnesses of God, wake up, stand up and ignite the power of the Divine inside your heart!!! 

The Arraival of the Messiah and the Anti-Christ

 With the war in Iran most religious groups are eagerly waiting and expecting they own Messiah. The Messiah that will save humanity from it self and place their respective religion as the true one. Ironically religious groups regard the Messiah of other groups as their anti-Christ or anti-messiah. The one that would enslave the world under a one world government while their 'true' Messiah would  become a benevolent leader of the one world government.

 

Though from mystical teachings and my own experience the Messiah is only once earmarked to incarnate into a physical body and that happened 2000 years ago.  The second coming of the Messiah is to awaken the divine with inside the hearts of each human. For the Buddhist it is enlightenment, for the Christians it is Christ consciousnesses, and that's why most Muslims is called Mohamed.

 

No Messiah is coming to save humanity from its own darkness and mistakes but each human must awaken the Messiah within him/herself and together we can build a world that we want to live in.  We as humanity need to take responsibility for our own world and not wait for some outside help to come and fix it all (or escape via a rupture).

 

The light and darkness in the world is a mirror of the light and darkness with in each one of us. Awaken to the divine with in side you and that divine will be reflected back to you in the world we live in.

 

Stop waiting to be save but take action and bear witness to the divine that is burning with in side you. Let your Light shine forth !!

The path of the mystic

 

I agree that we cannot remain silent about things that are ‘ineffable’. What has inspired me a lot is reading people's mystical experiences. Those that could bring back some of the Divine wisdom back through the barrier of ineffability. I would go as far as saying it is the mystic's duty to bring down the Divine into the world of materialism.

Between knowing a fact about a thing and knowing its nature. To know facts about something, you use the intellect, reasoning and language, but to know the nature of something, you have to become one with it. It is like giving all the facts of a mango to someone that have never seen one. But does not matter how good your explanations are, you can never give the person the experience of tasting a mango. This is the conundrum of the mystic.

Instead of asking how we know that the Divine has revealed himself in a particular tradition, we could ask how I can experience the Divine myself.

Imagine there is an isolated community which have evolved with zero or very limited emotions. They have very highly developed intellectual capacities and normal physical abilities. Their society is organised using their amazing intellect, and through this, all their physical needs are met.

Now imagine a man from this community travels to a far distant land and falls deeply in love with a woman. This deep love overrides his intellectual reasoning, and her physical well-being becomes more important than his own. After a few months, he travels back to his community and is faced with the ‘ineffability’ of explaining to them what ‘being in love’ is. This is the conundrum of the mystic.

How can the mystic use intellectual language to express the burning light of the Divine shining out from his heart? How many times does the mystic need to hug his companions to give them a glimpse of the experience that they are all one with the Divine and always have been? How does one describe the burning compassion of the flame of love in your heart to others who only have the tools of the intellect and physical body? This is the conundrum of the mystic.

The only way to know the nature of the Divine is to experience it for yourselves. Jumping off the cliff of the intellect into the heart of the Divine. Falling and falling into the everlasting deep waters of Divine love flowing around you and flowing through you. Until your heart explodes into a song of everlasting love. This is the path of the mystic.

Thelema

 The core philosophy of Thelma is the following"

 

“Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law. Love is the law, love under will. There is no law beyond, Do what thou wilt.” 

 

I propose the following:

 

 “Do what thou Love shall be the whole of the Law. Love is the law, will under love. There is no law beyond, Do what thou Love.”

In this context Love is Divine Love, a Love that serves the universe outside you and the universe inside you in a balanced way.  

 

The Mirror Illusion

In two mirrors facing each other. you see the infinite reflection of yourself.

That is how physical time and space work, and your physical eyes see the illusion.

Inside the two mirrors, you see the future and past of our linear world.

Outside the glass box, you experience the infinite divine love of now.

To see the other side of the mirror, you need to see through it with your heart.

The next time you see a tree or mountain, look with your heart.

The next time you look at your loved one, look behind the mirror of their physical appearance. 

Then you will see infinite waves of light and love dancing to the music of their soul. 

3 Dimentional Piano

With music, use yourself as the instrument you play on..

Your body is the drum base.
You know it is working when you feel your hair stand on end

Your emotions are the main part of the music.
Emotions flowing in waves over you.

Your mind and imagination are the melody
Visions of the spiritual rolling before your mind's eye.

Use your body as a 3D piano to play on.

Spiritual Growth

 It is in the struggle of life that the spirit grows.

Perspective

 To be a Light in the world you have to go down into the darkness. For it is in the dark that the Light is needed the most.